that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
is
not
complete
unhappiness
is
not
complete
happiness
and
unhappiness
is
not
complete !
so
on !
is
not
complete
unhappiness
is
not
complete
and
unhappiness
is
not
complete !
shoes: things god gave women to say sorry for creating men. (ed. on a card !)
shoos, things god gave to men and women to be free of each other !
how things have changed, the captain was a new zealander and was on a combination of autopilot and computer game like steering and spent most of his time talking to passengers or making a monologue over the boat intercom system, no other seamen (stewardess’s handling the mooring ropes) and it’s a big boat !
great weather, well worthwhile !
had
a
vision
of
the
sixth
patriarch
as
an
imp
or
a
sprite
on
the
tip
of
a
cone
shaped
rainforest
tree
just
north
of
tullah
beneath
some
cliffs !
out
on
the
mouth
of
king
river
went
into
a
different
space
more
infinity
the
truth
of
infinity
is
we
are
essentially
alone
there's
some
essential
loneliness
it
underlies
there's
some
essential
loneliness
there's
some
essential
loneliness
underlies
amazes
me
is
you
can
be
very
experienced
in
something
then
something
happens
and
you
realise
you
totally
misunderstood
it
or
never
understood
it
in
the
first
place !
what
amazes
me
is
you
can
be
very
experienced
in
something
then
something
happens
and
you
realise
you
totally
misunderstood
it
or
never
understood
kill
me
you
disappear ”
kill
you
we
are
still
here ”
prove
it
to
me !
you
think
you
understand
something
when
you
look
at
it
but
you
don't
really
understanduntil
you
take
part
and
even
then
it
takes
quite
a
while !
and
do
you
ever
understand ?
you
think
you
understand
something
when
you
look
at
it
but
you
don't
really
understand
until
you
take
part
and
even
then
it
takes
quite
a
while !
and
do
you
ever
understand ?
(ed. batgap)
there's just nothing that can be done
yeah and actually take my writings and use themselves in their limited way
i think my batgap/buddha at the gas pump escapade was like the crusades, not sustainable and the sooner one has got out the better !
like
don
quixote
it's
not
as
though
we
stop
tilting
at
windmills
premise
is
life
and
people
are
insane
there
is
no
solution
can
things
be
resolved !
premise
is
life
and
people
are
insane
there
is
no
solution
how
can
things
be
resolved !
ultimately straight sane
it has taken me a while to realise how mad advaita is
why do i keep trying to save people, it's a disease !
i'm always giving last priority to my own time and needs,
i'm always giving last priority to my own time and needs,
I'M SICK !
why do i keep trying to save people? it's a disease !
i'm always giving last priority to my own time and needs,
I'M SICK !
why do i keep trying to save people? it's a disease !
woman
takes
responsibility
for
the
breeding
of
the
species
on
her
shoulders
truth handle satire | mother teresa saint atheism | morons waste time |
life no path | brahman not belief r2 | brahman not belief r1 |
regurgitating clichés just does not cut it !
that creative energy will power you into exciting and new territory
so let's see it !
regurgitating clichés just does not cut it !
that creative energy will power you into exciting and new territory
so let's see it !
she she sells herself so to speak
she's
not
so
limited ? !
lacking
and
wrong !
infinity is true
truth is
false
emptiness
is
lacking
and
this
is
wrong !
the sense is there if you look for it !
it's an additional reply to what follows in the homily below !
@Andrew
Infinity, Truth, Emptiness, This…take your pick.
Pure semantics, the playground of the pseudo-intellectual.
my reply
infinity !
to you of course they are meaningless not a teacher are you?
that's really what the revelatory experience is about which obviously you are a stranger to !
in the end it's only your own certainty that matters
you're not because you need the words to be what you think they should !
i
am
not
a
teacher !
@Andrew
Infinity, Truth, Emptiness, This…take your pick.
Pure semantics, the playground of the pseudo-intellectual.
my reply
infinity !
to you of course they are meaningless not a teacher are you?
that's really what the revelatory experience is about which obviously you are a stranger to !
in the end it's only your own certainty that matters
you're not because you need the words to be what you think they should !
am
not
a
teacher !
am
always
learning
twits
can
teach
better
than
wise
men
and
take
you
to
the
cleaners
as
well !
am
always
learning
twits
can
teach
better
than
wise
men
how about “i am a swimsuit”?!
seems to lack grandeur somehow !
i don't know what insomina is an objectivization of tho : o )
truth itself is abit boring compared to infinity which encompasses truth and falsehood !
say
the
what
i
reckon
it
is : o )
your life goes into your wife's/girlfriend's/partners/lovers vaginas ?
they
would
say
so
it
should !
still being semi-young and pretty is only going to carry you so far, or is that even backwards ?
when the wrinkles come and men distain you what then?
(ed. some degree of psychiatric institutionalization as child)
you have been crucified just about worse than any other autistic spectrum i know of !
i spent years in boarding school and i agree, the institutional experience does anesthetize you somehow !
i am really sorry you can't handle my posts and perhaps may have even set this to be automatically removed so you won't read it !
(ed. the batgap comments in her interview section !)
imo she's a bit plain and a nightmare !
and in india prattling about dying
in actual fact i find with all this spiritual stuff the dynamics are simply sexual (ersatz reproductive) and we have the travesty of strongly celibate traditions being shoe-horned into modern western post contraceptive sexual reality !
dylan thomas had it right !
net time machine | understood no one | males attention |
don't understand inkling | kensho contrived | males women dispassionately |
fight across species | government health bureaucracies | crazy advising dying |
LOL
blog
comments/message boards : o )
i do have a page on sleep since i would infer from your posting times that some of you don't sleep that well, these sorts of problems are of course par for the course in this game !
one ain't interested in infinity because finity is adequate !
if you look at the video he really hard sells his guru (maharaj-ji - also of ram dass fame) as some god on earth but what is the reality ? another dirty old man !
about 4/10th the way down !
it's just a sleazy promiscious scene, what's there for the gurus is there for the disciples !
at least he has avoided paedophiles this time, hopefully !
thanx anatol, you have been a real education about all this saccharine guru stuff, helping me see thats it's all a front for sleaze or even outright illegal perversion !
ingrid writes:
words just passing through an open door not landing anywhere. save your breath ..
my reply
words in synchronicity with infinities justice, spent usefully !
: o )
words in synchroncity with infinities justice, spent usefully !
how like life, the female has the big weapon !
how like human, both the weapons are fake !
“Think I’m going to watch a film, for a light change of pace.”
yeah see that's the difference between doing this for real and being a .....well you do that so well already !
if you are serious there is no room for that sort of distortion, entertainment like that is for the pretends !
there is no change of pace, it's just unremittingly heavy and that's what it takes, i think you are beginning to see the difference
of course this is just the comments section on the batgap blog !
he of the bleeding eyeballs !
his argument is we are evolutionarily designed to copy rather than innovate which is advaita all over, second rate minds putting on the verbal cloak of “THAT” bullshit, never noticing it's foul smell and empty meaninglessness !
people can't think, they are only designed to copy and don't notice the difference between real and fraud because so much of what we do is fraud and to be real is to start to invalidate ourselves?
cat got your tongue anatol when i start to talk about paedophilia and hindu? when i see people push the sentimental bullshit like you do, i know there is some agenda behind it !
what is really going on in the amma scene, i don't get the right vibe from it !
a little thought experiment for everyone, or at least those who appear to be glamorized by lisa cairns, imagine her being a menopausual woman ! would she even rate a mention ? LOLOLOLOL
where are the teachers replying to the criticism here , the real understanders of old didn't hide or be so busy with their lives nothing seems to penetrate, but like all the zen flakes they pretend this criticism is not happening !
are
losing
something
if
you
know
two
languages !
power
of
expression
for
one
thing
and
an
unsnarled
brain
for
another !
are
losing
something
if
you
know
two
languages !
power
of
expression
for
one
thing
and
an
snarled
brain
for
another !
infinity solitude | ferals end of time | advaita social copying r2 | |
advaita social copying r1 | talking to myself | vision quantum gate | |
majestic image god | god heath robinson | life hallucinatory |
you are assuming the absolute subsumes the relative so to speak which it does, but being the absolute, it also doesn't !
because
it
is
absolute !
well that's the difference between us you don't know do you? you are not even pretending because you don't think or believe there is such a thing !
like the other posters here in the batgap comments section
for sport i hunt, you are quite right, there's nothing like shooting a few animals and then gutting and eating them to know what it's all about, an incredibly violent process
slit a wallabies throat this morning that got stuck in a fence and injured, a quiet relaxed death actually, the blood just flowing out, dead in about two minutes, not a bad way to go !
just cooking up some offal now, brains, prostate and a testicle, thyroids tomorrow
i get angry at all the phoniness of the posters here and puzzle why with a little thought and sense they don't start to do some real process, but wilfully blind is wilfully blind !
we just look at each other, i can't believe you can be so stupid and you can't believe that the ouroboros can disappear into itself as a direct personal experience
of course if you partially nibble you can become a teacher !
: o )
what people are hungry for is their own self aggrandizement, the best that can be hoped for is we become more skeptical about it !
there is no non-seeking state, both jesus and buddha were seeking
as some-one like you who follows physics , my observation is that string theory has been discredited and quantum loop gravity is offering a sort of unified theory with fields being the basis of physical reality
you make an interesting point about relative and absolute truths which has a philosophical correlate, in the abstract being true, but “particulars” not necessarily being in conformance with it !
“THAT” is a voynichy fiction of advaita, if one accepts it as nonsense and just the need of teachers to present it as a basis of differentiating themselves the whole business becomes clearer !
interstricts
each other !
only
life
was
as
simple
as
hate
and
love !
only
life
were
as
simple
as
hate
and
love !
only
life
were
as
simple
as
hate
and
love !
are you going to be a victim of this all your life ?
not the manipulation
by women, but the simple egoism
invading the space of the poem
like a dog urinating over it, most of them
by eileen and andrew
invading the space of the poem
like a dog urinating over it, most of them
by eileen and andrew
yeah it's really sad that women can't self inseminate
i've seen it so often in the religious area, the twits who can't be bothered to do a bone of work themselves with any real process like solitude or tested thinking and just SPOIL one way or another, in this case it's drowning the real content of the site with overwhelming visual garbage, be it the beatles or the spaced out flake whatever !
all this fine talk and what is the reality of behavior, “have a nice day” meaning “don't dare pry into my stupidity” or overt spoiling !
it
is
beautiful !
glitzy nonsense put together by schizophrenics for schizophrenics !
anatole, mood and elevation of feeling is temporary and no answer
you all talk about silence but none of you let it speak to you!
what is
it telling you?
or is the trash in your minds obscuring everything?
aleister crowley sounds very like w.h. auden and dylan thomas !
crowley's account of writing the poem ( page 554 of his confessions )
women
though
the
female
attribute
is
universal
each
wants
illusion
she
is
special !
can't
explain
something
to
some-one
for
which
they
have
no
experiential
basis
for !
mother
teresa
maybe
she's
mimic
saint !
they are have a green pool in like a clear pond as well
satsang toxic | wrong social streak | toni packer closing eyes |
don't fit | don't fit (short version) | arguing for against mistake |
all fake |
“ just leave yourself aside and let things flow and if that's not enlightenment what is? ”
and reply
“ well, how can anyone keep things from flowing?
even trying to keep things from flowing, is part of the flow, huh.”
my comment is what you have written is straight voynich !
on another level you are stuck in what i wrote about earlier, this problem of the enlightened state being regarded as seeing everything as the same !
everything is the flow, it's always the flow in terms of your reply above !
you do that because you don't see what it's about which in your case NOW is not defending but responding to what i say in a manner searching of yourself for what is true to infinity and what is not !
as it is you are stuck in some stupid hell state !
you and snow leopard and numerous others on the batgap comments and endless others on the various spiritual wanking boards like brad warners hardcore zen blog !
i would guess you have no experience with solitary retreats because you are so unself-aware !
if you don't get that time away you just have no clue that there is more to it than stupid intellectualizing !
what's
different
about
lisa
cairns
is
she
has
actually
made
changes
in
her
life
based
on
what
obviously
doesn't
or
hasn't
worked !
i'm very open to what you say (ed. his being of the opinion that what i write is “bullshit”) and ask that you get specific and quote
like let's take what you just wrote “Please don’t be sorry – such a waste of energy”
in actual fact sorrow is one of life's remediating aspects
do you think you could reply to that? what you say about sorry is just advaita clonespeak and actually is pretty well across the entire indian/asian religious thing, a false view that everything must be the same, an error lisa cairns falls into btw and actually a good point rick made in the interview about “levels”
see all these teachers and they don't learn from rick who has a lot to offer just in the way he's more open to things, yet they don't, too hard bitten in my opinion
what's the point of doing an interview, there's no money in this game (eckhart tolle has banked it all ; o )
just leave yourself aside and let things flow and if that's not enlightenment what is?
i did ask you a real question and am sorry to see you avoiding an answer.
you have asked me a reasonable question however and my answer is this
that in fact i spend a fair portion of my day writing homilies which are published on my website and in fact what i post and some of your material ends up there, so it's really working i guess !
just the process of replying to and contradicting bullshit is quite helpful, you can exclude it, but i don't think that works in the end !
yeah she's got a strong charisma as well as being one of the better advaita teachers, possibly the leader of a rather dull pack !
i am a sucker for charisma personally and what i have learnt the hard way over the years is people with charisma always have some overriding flaw that screws up their own lives and that of everyone else around them
lisa cairns is an out and out “love bomber” if you know what the term means and a great user of people, but hey, people deserve to be used !
she is also one of the very few advaita teachers with any sense of what it all about and no doubt will move onto
“greater things” ie mooji-like status if her health holds up which it usually doesn't in my observation !
don't you have any interest in being right and not some clone spewing nonsense ?
all this energy going into so much vapourware ? when old age hits with it's ills and pains and crapped out brains will there be “no-one to suffer” ?
just another generation full of bullshit passing !
difficult problems have to be come at from several directions
richards
lisa
cairns
advaita
is
toxic
for
you
and
has
consumed
you !
truth religion poetry | 7th patriarch v2 | 7th patriarch v1 | |
infinity life estranged | hubbard | buddha absolute |
it's
just
the
same
as
christian
it's
the
way
people
think !
because i am fairly autistic i was in a way fortunate to live most of my life celibate and it's really only with that you get the focus of attention necessary
for married/relationship types a different more relaxed approach as per 7th patriarch zen is needed with much more focus on the “wisdom” aspects and just plain getting away to some solitude than is current in any of the modern spiritual paradigms
your main purpose in life is making and supporting babies !
in those circumstances zazen is just going to crucify you !
dogen never recommended zazen for laypeople !
(ed. toni packer, letter attached to a card sent late jan 2012)
the net is a funny thing, i can look at stu glick's stereo system and photos of springwater and the memories come flooding back !
the spiritual world is full of spacey flakeyness and outright though unconcious fraud, it was my priviledge to come across someone-genuine !
i guess i should apologise for the use of the word “spiritual”, but i have got more practical with age !
: o )
red
the
woods
are
blazing
and
so
are
you !
Andrew Levin
i liked that, opens up a new window into bach !